I got through his birthday rather well, without a conscious emotional roller coaster. A couple of times sad thoughts drifted through my heart, but I didn't let it ruin my day. I even got to speak to him, he had been moved to another facility and called to let us know. I had my fears about how I would handle this emotionally, but I was reminded of my husband and friends and the love I have all around me. There have been quite a few special gifts come my way this week.
It's a busy week at work and there are too many numbers flying to pay attention to the noise in my brain. I think that helps tremendously. I really like this part of the month except for that I move so fast, it's hard to completely absorb all I am doing right away. I had one of those days today. The numbers were flying and it seemed there was an issue in every department. I felt like my brain was changing channels a little too fast today and by the afternoon, I knew it for sure. I went home a little discouraged and cranky with myself. I did, however, have an urge to go right home and exercise. I was surprised at those thoughts, that's a nice change. Our little Olympic Gold challenge at work has given me the motivation to get started. Maybe feeling like I'm on a team and not doing this alone helps. Who knows, somethings working. I am actually looking forward to a work out. Hope I keep it up. I got forty minutes in and what do you know, my attitude brightened pretty quickly. Maybe I can do another twenty before bed.
When I did get home today, I found a "message from home" on my porch. It was a bright message, put a smile in my heart. I had ordered some fresh organic, hand crafted goat cheese from my friend's farm in Pescadero. It came today with a very fun return address as well as the goodies inside. I shared this cheese with a friend that likes to play with her food as much as I do. I can't wait to see what she does with it.
I got to thinking something might be wrong with a friend or there may be news in Pescadero because it's been on my mind a lot lately. I planted a few artichokes this last month. I don't see them grow much here and where we lived in Pescadero artichokes were seen for miles along the coast. Another wonderful gift I received this week were a couple nice crabs. My first thought was to make Cioppino. Cioppino is the meal you have on your birthday in Pescadero or other important family affair. That's where I learned to create it. I got to wondering why Pescadero was on my mind so much.
After exercising, meditating a little, and creating a new salad with my husband my mind cleared a little, I think I may have sorted it out. I worked in Pescadero at Duarte's with Dee and her then, future family, when Marty was born twenty three years ago. I guess I am thinking about his birthday, just not the way I thought I would. Instead of worrying about him, I am having fond memories of us when he was born. Life is Good
Large round: Fresh goat cheese with edible flowers and sunflower seeds.
Small round: with cranberries and walnuts
I will get back to you about what I do with it, soon.